Friday, September 23, 2005
I bet everyone missed my blog entries. Heheh. Dun try to deny it.
Prelim exams finally came to an end. So in order to celebrate the brief period for us to rest, we all went to JUNNIE’s house to play! Everyone was so loserish lar (of cos it included me). Play one mahjong game also can expose the underlying loserism spirit in everyone. Hehe. And june tan the stupid fat pig was the worst lar!!! While playing or eating (I cant rmB), she actually exclaimed tat weiwei rhythms with feifei (fatty) and decided to call me fei wei!!!! Liew.. how can she do this to me lar?!!??!?! I merely suffer from CBS (chubby arms symptom) and currently seems to be traveling towards the fatty side but I ‘m NOT fat YET!!!!.. argh. I nearly wanted to whack her.. hehe.. but I decided not to in the end, it wld only dirty my hands.
Okie, maybe I shldnt be so happy since we juz got back our ss, English and a maths papers today. It was totally a blow after another. Shan’t talk abt the results anymore. But frm today, I juz learnt something or rather understand myself even more now. I noe I always like to be in control yet at the same time, not bonded by too many restrictions. Call me weird or anything, but I realized that the more people around dun put extra stress and pressure on me to follow rules, the more I will do so. On the contrary, the more they want me to follow, the more I will rebel and say “NO!”. weird. I find myself weird too.
I used to be quite selfish, never failing to be confused over why my parents and teachers shld get upset over my results if I dun do well. Maybe it’s jus the way society works. Becos we all dun live on a one-man island, we all haf obligations and people to account to. It could be pressurizing but also motivating for us at times. I want to get into my ideal jc, my mother also hopes (very hard) for it to really come true. I may not show it to her, but I do care abt her views on me too.
But no matter wat, I guess the bottomline is to be grateful to what life really throws to us. If I really cannot get into a good jc, it could be a signal for me to work harder. Wat really matters is what I really accomplish when I step out into the society, whether or not I make a difference for the people I care and my country and the world.
Most importantly, it’s time to change the blogskin. Really time to change. Hehe.. :P
A Xinwei rainbow appeared at 5:09 PM***
